Karma

Does it really exist? The new show on NBC called "Earl" got me to thinking about Karma. I guess the basic concept has been around since time began, that of "what goes around, comes around" or something to that effect. Essentially, Karma is life evening things out, right? I also used to feel that all things were happening around me in the world in more or less random fashion, ie, "odds" were that something would or would not happen to you today. But with age, oops, I mean with "experience", I have kind of come to see that in the big scheme of things, we each have a destiny to fulfill and that the more "bad" things we do, the more "bad" things are likely to happen to us. Over the past 2 or so years, I have modified my thought process and behavior to better reflect how I was raised, in a Christian home with God fearing parents. Losing my Mom last fall really put a cap on it for me. Beginning in when I was around 38, 39 or 40, I had this feeling that I was invincible, that I was above normal laws and bounds that the lesser around me were supposed to abide by. I wasn't evil or crooked or anything, but I just felt that I could do basically anything anytime and not have to worry about "karma" etc. Of course, I was wrong. By the time I was 48, I had gone through a lot of bad crap, personally, emotionally, financially and job related. I now know that God (karma?) led me out of the US to the Caribbean for a reason and that experience helped me get back to the basics, get a good job and end up in Memphis!

I guess we all feel, at some point in our lives, that we are invincible, but at 50, with a recurring bad need, bad back and receding hairline, I understand now that my behavior in my 40's hurt a lot of folks and "karma" had to even things out. I feel as if I have done my "Earl", gotten even with karma and now I want to get ahead! Live right, be gentler and kinder and hopefully really enjoy the time that I have left. How does that sound?

Get to work idiot! (I meant me)

Good day