Bad news

It had to happen! A rapper feud pops up again! I know, this is commonplace, but this one is between Kanye West and 50 cent and the feud is? Kanye says GBush showed his lack of respect for the African-American cause during Katrina and 50 says Kanye is nuts, GW and his cronines (my word) did all they could! Now, that is a rapper feud!

On a more solemn note, apparently my mother is not going to live through the night. My brother took her to the hospital last night and this afternoon he told the doctors to "pull the plug", ie, respirator off. She has been battling cancer and illness for a while, but we didn't know how bad she had gotten in the last few weeks. She wouldn't tell anyone nor let anyone help her (stubborn?) and by the time my brother got to her to the hospital, she was mostly gone. A bacterial infection, extremely low BP and organ failure got the best of her, or at least she should be gone in a matter of hours now. She was a tuff one most all her life, raising me and my brother pretty much single handedly (divorced when I was 13). She definitely gave us her best, but since she remarried several years ago, it has been downhill. Stress, sorry excuse (drunk) and abusive husband and excessive smoking finally took their toll. She has always had "low blood", to use a layterm, and always thought she had heart problems. Her work at a coal-mining facility plus her smoking led to deterioation of her lungs and she lost most of her sight several years back (smoking). When she was finally diagnosed with cancer a few years ago, I guess I knew the end was near. Through it all, she supported me, both emotionally and financially (during my divorce and when I left my last FT job). She was tough, wouldn't take crap from anyone and was always on the defensive (paranoid?). I have been praying that she would find some peace and happiness in her life before she passed. It has been a few years since I have seen her, but she was monumental in helping me move to the Carribbean and then on to Memphis, when I got the job here. We talked on the phone a lot and many time we ended up arguing, mostly because we were both unhappy with our own situations. To say that I owe her a lot is trivial, my life and all that is good about it is due to her. I know God has, or will shortly, take her home to the final and ultimate peace that we all yearn for. Love you mom!

Good day